Just some thoughts

It was just another day for me. Worked in the morning and a little this afternoon. Had to make a few adjustments at a few of the reservoirs but didn't feel like doing much else.

Dave and willie spent the day with mom so rob could meet Maggie and cousin Steve and Robbie in Manhattan. They all went back to mom's for dinner and had a great time. I of course wasn't there and was a bit melancholy as a result. Jake called me this morning. It was great to hear from him. He is working in Berlin as a Security guard for the new embassy construction. He is due back in the states in about a month and we are going to try to get together. Irwin called while I was talking to Jake and I called him back. Man it was good to talk to him too. We haven't talked in almost 20 years! He sounded like the old days. He hasn't changed too much. He is big into running now and such. We are going to try to get together when i come in to NY.

I haven't been feeling to well so I didn't do much else today. Cleaned the bathroom etc, and roasted a half chicken for dinner. Otherwise I watched a couple of movies and such and drank a little wine. Thought I would jot down a few thoughts then hit the sack early. I have no social life in Yakima so I might as well. Listening to WNYC Folksongs while I am typing this. Man that's one great thing about the Internet, live stream free radio from NY. I'm really looking forward to Fire Island. I'm going to really put some effort into job hunting after the trip as I am sick of where I'm at with no hop for things to change it is the only course. I may be a little old for a career change but there has to be something better out there.

I've been thinking of the old days and how I used to be. There is allot of me now that is better but there is allot of the old me I miss too. I want to feel that freedom again. It's still in my heart. I feel like a prisoner right now trying to find a way to escape. I HATE THAT FEELING! I want to be free again and I can't stand it! I'm getting to the point where I'm just going to split and let it happen. I don't think it is midlife crisis. I have always felt that way in my heart.

Gonna go make a milkshake now.

peace