Long Time

Man it's been a while since my last posting. Went back to NY for 12 days (10-12 to 10-23) to see Mom and give Rob a break. Took Mom to Poughkeepsie for 5 days did some touring, apple orchards etc then Trinity's 100th Anniversary on the 21st. It was a busy time but worth it. Work has been the same. Irrigation season is over and Tony retired otherwise the same. Have scheduled another trip to NY for Dec. 15th to Jan 5th. Spend the holidays with mom and give rob a break. Will go to the Barone's 11-27 to 12-01 to take care of Michael while Bruce and Maria go to Mexico for Bruce's 50th BD. Otherwise nothing new to report. Just SSDD as we say.

Weather has been great! Sunny and cool but we could use some rain and snow. Hope it comes soon. Will catch up more later.

Peace!

Just an update: Things haven't changed much for me since my last post. Been working allot. Seven days a week building up allot of comp time. Used some of my flyer miles to go back to NY again to see mom in October and give Rob a break. Not much has changed with my family. Dave and Jane have made a trip or 2 to see mom for a few hours but not much help for Rob. Maggie is still running around like a chicken with it's head cut off.

I haven't been feeling well since I came back from NY. This dry dusty climate is horrible for my sinus'.

I'm heading out of town this weekend to visit the Barone's and really looking forward to it. I keep looking for another job but not much available with my background. I'm really great at my job but tired of all the babysitting. Morale really sucks at work and the boss is blind to it all. I'm tired of it all and don't want to elaborate.

Real happy about the summer ending. I am not a hot weather person. I love the fall and am happy September is here, football, leaves changing etc. Want to be more upbeat but I'm tired and trashed.

peace

It's been more than a week since my last post which was a short one. The summer has blown by quickly as we are approaching the Labor day weekend. Mom and rob have been doing well since I left. I have made reservations to return to Richmond Hill in October for Trinity's (the Church I grew up in)centennial. I am planning on taking mom for a trip to see the fall colors and will spend 10 days with her.

Since my return to work I have been struggling to keep a positive mental attitude but it is extremely difficult. I have never worked in such a dysfunctional arena. It is such a miss-managed office but no one seems to care. I can really relate to citizens who have no faith in the govt's ability to operate efficiently. The supervisors and mangers are really incompetent and therefore so insecure they micromanage to the point of complete inefficiency. I have to learn to let go and just get paid until I can get the hell out of there.

As for my life, well there isn't much to say. I have been pretty sick for the past 2 weeks with ear and sinus infections that won't go away although I am finally starting to feel better. I missed a couple of day at work last week and have been taking a couple of hours off each day this week as I am still feeling crappy. I don't really have a life here in Yakima. I don't like the people, there isn't much to do and the cops suck. I am tyring to figure out how to get back into my own business and become my own person again. I seem to keep harping on the same shit over and over again. I am getting real boring. I am searching for something new and challenging to spark my life. I am open to any ideas.

On a positive light ??????? I really have to think, maybe it's time to join a support group or start drinking heavily. Ha Ha!!!! I'm working hard to become debt free. Trying to keep my expenses down and pay off the credit cards. I would like to move to a better apartment but this one is cheap and close to work. All these trips to NY are really adding up so I live like a miser when I am home. Don't go out much and don't go to Chewelah as often as I would like. I work just about every weekend to get more time off to travel back east. Things will get better, just have to keep plugging.

Well I'm tired and will end for now. Don't forget to say a prayer each and every night for all those who don't have. God Bless you all!!!!!!

peace!

It's been awhile since my last post. Since then I have been back to NYC for 2 weeks, one of which we spent at Carol's house on Fire Island. What a glorious week. Great weather, the water was great! and the peace and quiet cannot be valued! Been back to work since 8/11. Have developed an ear infection I can't get rid of. Otherwise all is okay. I just feeling pretty crappy right now so I'll add more later.

It's been a hot week. Near 100 every day! Today it's only 96. Supposed to cool into the mid 80's by Thursday. Can't wait. Gonna have a hell of an electric bill next month with the AC on all the time. Oh well the rich get richer as they say. Had another typical week at work so I won't elaborate. Maggie spent Thursday and Friday night with Mom so Rob got a little break. Jane came to see them on Friday and they all went out. I haven't been doing much lately. Saving my money for NY. It's been too hot to do anything anyhow. Worked today for a couple of hours and tomorrow too.

The video store was selling all it's video tapes for $5 a tape. I found a copy of Paint Your Wagon, hardly been played so I grabbed it and a copy of Hoffa with Jack Nicholson and a copy of the Gospel according to John.

Kevin Collins finally called after about 6 months. We only spoke briefly as he was on a bus and I could hardly hear him. We will catch up more later. Been cleaning around the apartment and paying bills etc. most of the day. Gonna make something to eat and watch a movie. More later

peace

Friday was another 100 degree day and a busy one at work. Today it was about 93 and breezy. Went to work about 6:30am and took care of business by 9:30. Played lotto, some laundry and cleaned the bathroom, then to Safweway for some groceries. Back to the apartment to clean up. Dave called from Mom's. They were having a good time. Just got back from Breezy Point for lunch and were hanging around talking. Robert and mom called later and will probably call again later. I am veging out now watching westerns. Not much else on. Been checking out Live Earth on Bravo from time to time.
peace

3 weeks to the beach!!!!!!

It was quite a busy day for me today. Phone started ringing at 6AM and didn't stop till noon. Made the day go fast. The Office was pretty empty today,allot of people on vacation. I like it like that, feels like the weekend except for the phones. I hate to say it but I really enjoy work when Tom (my assistant) is not there. It's not that he is a bad guy but he never shuts up and it is mostly to complain about his wife or kid. He really is a good guy, just shouldn't have gotten married. Oh well! Better him than me. Tomorrow is Friday. Nice having Wed. off. Really broke up the week.

It was another scorcher here today. 103 in the shade!!!!!!!!!!! Supposed to cool tomorrow to 96 to 101, WOW!. Temps are fore casted to stay above 90 for the next 10 days at a minimum.

I spoke with Mom and Adel earlier and it was okay. Robert called but we didn't talk long. Barbara called me at work today which was quite a surprise as she rarely calls. Some of my old classmates and 2 of my old professors are getting together Aug 5th - 7th in Conn. and she wants me to go with her. I am thinking of going if Maggie can cover for me at Moms as we will just be returning from Fire Island on the 5th or 6th. It would be nice to go. I need to speak with Maggie and see what her plans are.

I haven't payed too much attention to the news the past few days though I was quite disappointed to see our President pardon his pal Libby. No one is accountable in the Bush administration, apparently. Only we the masses are accountable in today's world, except of course poor Paris! Well too much time wasted on things that will never change. I will spend the rest of my time tonight with a positive mental attitude (PMA).

peace!

Independance Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was a hot day, 98 in the shade!!!!!!! Tomorrow, 104! Too much, thank goodness for AC. My portable AC is working like a charm so far. I'm glad I bought it. I don't do well in the heat.


I spent some time today reflecting on being an American. I may bitch allot about our politicians and our poorly run government, but it is still the best country in the world, (although I love Canada too). The older I get though the more of my freedoms and rights I see diminished. We live in a violent world with radical people who are more than willing to sacrifice their own life to take another. The world has always known these types. They are not new to history. It is the technology they use that makes them so much more dramatic and dangerous. This does not however in my opinion justify the President and the Government to whittle away at our freedoms in the name of our protection. In the battle between safety and the preservation of our democracy and freedoms I will take democracy and freedom any day. On this day of celebration of our independence let us not forget that this country was founded on freedom and our fathers and their fathers died to ensure those freedoms for us. Let us not dishonor their memories by allowing our government to take from us what those that came before us fought so hard to earn and maintain. God bless America!!!
Spoke with Robert, Mom and Maggie today and they were all well. Rainy 4th in NY.
Gotta get going.
peace

Sunday Catching up with chores.

Well it's been a few days since my last post. It was a rough week physically. Missed a few days at work. That was the only good thing about it. It was a pleasant weekend at home. Worked at the office Sat. and Sun. mornings, then monitored from home the rest of the days. Running the River a little fat over the weekend to avoid any problems. Mom and Robert seemed to have a good weekend. Robert really needs a break though. I can tell he is more stressed than normal and exhausted. Maggie had been sick all week but seems to be improving some.

I have to go back on my diet. I have been letting myself go and have put a few pounds back on. Don't want to get back to the old bad habits again. No more pizza, cupcakes and chocolate. Went to the Farmers' Market this morning after work and picked up some fresh corn, onions, garlic, beets, apricots and radishes. Also a loaf of Mediterranean bread with roasted garlic and red peppers! that is goooood!!!!!!!!!!!! Read the Seattle Times and the Yakima Herald then put on the Godfather saga and did laundry and housecleaning. Made sandwiches and steamed corn, cauliflower and broccoli for dinner. Now a little TV and then bed. How exciting!

peace

Catching up!

It's been almost a week since my last post so I want to get something up tonight to get back in the groove. Had a nice weekend at the Barone's. A little golf, a little barbecue, a little beer and some good friends (although they all love to talk golf course real estate). I came back tired and with my back in an uproar but it was worth it.

Took Monday and Tuesday off. Went in today and the rest of the week. Have allot to do and am working the weekend. I have lost my drive at work and have to re-capture it to survive in the asylum.

Have spoke to mom and rob quite often this week. Mom seems a little off her game and has not been sleeping well. It makes it harder on rob when that happens as he gets no sleep too. There has been a series of articles regarding caring for your aging parents this week in USA Today which I have been following. It is somehow reassuring to read about others who are dealing with the dame issues. I am saving the articles to send to rob.

The rest of the news this week continues to be filled with Iraq, the West Bank, Sudan, Darfur etc... all the same with no hope for peace. It's gonna be a long hot summer the way things look. And the band played on! More senseless killings in the old USA, wrestling and steroids, bound to happen one day, unfortunately.

It's been hot here but supposed to cool for the weekend. Hope we get some showers, we could sure use them! Had to fast the past 36+ hours for some medical tests so tonight I splurged and bought a pint of Hagendas Vanilla and am having milkshakes for dessert. I almost forgot what real ice cream tasted like! Maybe more later.

peace

It was another party day at work! Semi annual safety meeting so everyone was allowed to wear shorts attend an all morning meeting and waste the rest of the day with a barbecue lunch. As River Operator I had to work which I didn't mind as I cannot stand those waste of time meetings. It was quite nice actually with no one around. I was very busy so the day went fast.

Got home from work and packed for the weekend. i picked up 2 boxes of fresh cherries to bring to the Barone's. They are a real treat and at $1 a lb you can't beat them. Spoke with mom a rob a few times, took a shower made a pork chop for dinner and put on a John Wayne movie as there was nothing good on to watch. Maggie called and we chatted for awhile. I downloaded Google earth onto my laptop and fooled around with it for awhile. Looked at Ocean beach, my place, Mom's, and Maggie's. I can't wait to go to Ocean Beach. whole week on Fire Island with no cars, and the ocean just down the block. If I could I would live there. Can't wait to fly into JFK on July 26th and head for the beach!. Got the FMLA papers from Maggie in the mail today.

will get them on file at work tomorrow.

Just got off the phone with Maria. She is looking forward to my visit and so am I. She wants me to stop in Spokane on my way up to pick up some salmon and stuff. Not looking forward to COSTCO in Spokane but what the hell. Well got a few things to do before bed. May not post again till I get back from Chewelah.

peace.

Not much to say today. Another day at work. went on storage control so I am running the river flows from now till October when irrigation season ends. Released allot of water today to take control. Tom is covering for me this weekend so I want to make sure he had enough flow to make deliveries.

Called Adam for his Birthday but we only spoke for a minute as he was in the gym. Mom was in great spirits today and was Happy to see Adel today. Mom and Rob called me about 9 and sang happy birthday for a goof. Didn't talk to anyone else today from the family.

My back has been really bad lately.Took a couple of muscle relaxers today and they really knocked me out. tonight's picture is of Mom with willie, Maggie Steve and Roberta at mom's last Saturday. Not much else to add today.Am watching the movie Deja Vu with Denzel Washington. It's okay but nothing to write home about. Skipped the news today. It was hot here in Yakima. 90 and sunny, have the AC on, supposed to cool for the weekend. Maybe more later.

peace

Q.

It must be me!

Well Tuesday at work went as expected. Things are transitioning on the river so I am quite busy. It's not rocket science but it takes a little attention. They have worn me down at work so I am trying to let it go when I am not there.

I guess it must be me as I seem to piss allot of people off. Not just at work but family too! I guess I'm just to abrupt and direct. People are just not prepared for it. I have always been that way but no one seems to be able to deal with it. I try to tone it down but that just doesn't seem to work for me. I don't like dancing around issues and like to be direct but somehow that approach just seems to piss people off. Even though I am dealing with the facts of an issue people somehow prefer the indirect approach or to ignore the issue completely. I will never be comfortable handling things in that fashion. What is it about most people when it comes to dealing with issues. I can't stand dangling things around and not dealing with them right then and now. It eats away at me, if I don't deal with it and expose the issue. Oh well I must work on my people skills or I will have no friends at all.

Went to COSTCO today and got my membership started. The Barone's let me join under the company so it is a little cheaper. I don't really like going there cause I always buy more than I need. I did buy some chicken sausages today though that were terrific. Garlic and Asiago mmmmm good. Bought a three lb bag of coffee beans and some other shit. Also some delicious blueberries which I put in my milkshake tonight which was great. Will bring the rest to work tomorrow to share with the gang. Spent $100 bucks, got to watch myself there.

Haven't watched or listened to the news today which for some reason feels pretty good. Spoke with Mom and Rob about 6:30 PDT tonight. Mom was okay but Rob seemed a little off. I seemed to piss him off for some reason ( must be me again) so we cut it short and said goodnight. Maggie and I spoke for a bit. I called Maria today and we spoke for awhile. She is already getting worked up about Katie's wedding which is next June. That's just Maria, she won't relax about it until it is over. I told her I would go back east and bring her parents out for the wedding if her family didn't. I also told her I will stay with Michael this December when Bruce takes her to Cancun for their 30th anniversary so she wouldn't worry about that either. She won't relax until she is there but I will try to ease her anxiety till then. No one has heard from Jane for awhile but that is par for the course. Steve really wanted to see her but she didn't return any ones calls though they tried often. Dave ran into Peter when he was at mom's Saturday. He looked better but hasn't really changed just taking a little better care of himself as he has a girlfriend now. I plan on looking him up when I get back in July.

Well it's getting late so I guess that's it for now. Maybe more later

peace.

Tonight's picture is is of my cousin Steve, my sister Maggie, and cousin Roberta in Frans' Tavern in NYC on Saturday 6/16/2007. The first time they have been together in about 20 years. Steve lives in Belgum and Roberta in Tennessee, Maggie lives in NY.

I don't like Monday's

Another Monday, work before 6. Busy morning but time went fast. Maggie was with mom today. Called them about 1 and then 1:30EDT. they were having a good time. Mom has been great lately. It's all about stimulation.

I decided to give my annual co-worker peer award to Teresa. It's only $100 but she deserves it. She is always there when I need help and never complains. I don't know how i would get by at work without her. I can always rely on her. God bless Teresa!!!!!!!!!

I missed the family gathering Saturday at Mom's. Just something else to regret! Steve sent some pictures and that was great!. Roberta looks just like aunt Clair it's uncanny.Steve looked good and so did Dave and willie. Dave looks like he lost some weight. Mom Maggie and rob looked good too. I am posting a picture of mom's house Steve took. The house doesn't look bad. Robert and I spoke this evening and he made me privy to some things about cousin Randy. I won't go into detail but to say, just when you think others have it so much better than you do stop and think. Most of the time the cover always looks better than what is between the pages. Be happy with what you have and who you are, for things could be worse. Enjoy each day as it comes, each sunrise and sunset, they could be your last. Think not of the things you want but all the blessings you have. The greatest joys in life are not in what we posses. The greatest joy is life itself!. I just wish god had given me the the gift of writing. I feel I have so much to say but somehow I just can't seem to get it into the right words. I am more of a talker than a writer. I think and speak on my feet so freely but when I get to writing it down it all seems to fade so quickly.

Robert and Mom just called and sang me a song " I can't give you anything but love." they did a beautiful job. Mom loves to do it because she knows it means so much to me. She may have trouble remembering what happened an hour ago but she can remember all the words to songs from decades ago. I third partied Maggie and we all said goodnight together. Mom was so happy but ready to fall asleep. Well I'll end with that. Tomorrow is another day!

peace.

Just a quick note tonight. Worked early then to Walmart for a few things, then Sunday newspapers and smokes. Fixed license plate on Jeep, cleaned the inside a little then car wash. Watched the us open for a while. tiger almost pulled it out but no soap. talked to mom rob and maggie. did some laundry and read the papers. The Yakima herald really sucks so i buy the Seattle times on Sunday too. good paper. more to read and better editorials etc. Still not feeling to well. Hope i don't have a hassle with the boss tomorrow. just want to work and split. tired of fighting. looking to get a good nights sleep tonight so i will hit the sack early.

Got to start reading again. watching too much TV. need to get out more. well tomorrow is Monday so, there will be more tomorrow.

peace.

Just some thoughts

It was just another day for me. Worked in the morning and a little this afternoon. Had to make a few adjustments at a few of the reservoirs but didn't feel like doing much else.

Dave and willie spent the day with mom so rob could meet Maggie and cousin Steve and Robbie in Manhattan. They all went back to mom's for dinner and had a great time. I of course wasn't there and was a bit melancholy as a result. Jake called me this morning. It was great to hear from him. He is working in Berlin as a Security guard for the new embassy construction. He is due back in the states in about a month and we are going to try to get together. Irwin called while I was talking to Jake and I called him back. Man it was good to talk to him too. We haven't talked in almost 20 years! He sounded like the old days. He hasn't changed too much. He is big into running now and such. We are going to try to get together when i come in to NY.

I haven't been feeling to well so I didn't do much else today. Cleaned the bathroom etc, and roasted a half chicken for dinner. Otherwise I watched a couple of movies and such and drank a little wine. Thought I would jot down a few thoughts then hit the sack early. I have no social life in Yakima so I might as well. Listening to WNYC Folksongs while I am typing this. Man that's one great thing about the Internet, live stream free radio from NY. I'm really looking forward to Fire Island. I'm going to really put some effort into job hunting after the trip as I am sick of where I'm at with no hop for things to change it is the only course. I may be a little old for a career change but there has to be something better out there.

I've been thinking of the old days and how I used to be. There is allot of me now that is better but there is allot of the old me I miss too. I want to feel that freedom again. It's still in my heart. I feel like a prisoner right now trying to find a way to escape. I HATE THAT FEELING! I want to be free again and I can't stand it! I'm getting to the point where I'm just going to split and let it happen. I don't think it is midlife crisis. I have always felt that way in my heart.

Gonna go make a milkshake now.

peace

Thursday at the Lake

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Went in to work early as usual, had to get everything done by 8 as we had to go to Rimrock Lake for a "Meeting" actually it was a way to waste the day and have a picnic. My boss took my power money bonus and decide to spend it on steaks rather than dispersing to myself and my assistants as a cash bonus. He is technically not allowed to keep the bonus but somehow he got it all and I found out so he felt guilty and decided this was his way to make it up to us. What bullshit. Everyone got to waste the day at the lake pretending we were having a safety meeting. He doesn't realize that I still have to get my job done, so I just had to work harder and stay later as I was forced to attend the meeting and told to ignore operations. Only in the federal gov't could such things be possible. So I worked my ass off to get morning report done, reservoir releases made and line out the power plants. When we returned at 1:30 I had to stay late to make reservoir adjustments and return phone calls. Not much of a break for me though I did get some sun and brought home two steaks for dinner. I'm going to let him know I still feel screwed and would have rather have had the cash which I could have used to help my mother with her medical expenses. Well enough venting about work!

I got home late and called back east. Mom and Adel were okay but wondering why I hadn't called all day. they let three messages during the day. I asked my brothers and sisters to call during the day because I would be unable to. But nobody called. Robert called at 8pm and remind me it was aunt marge's 85th birthday today so i hung up with him and called her right away. We spoke for 40 minutes and had a great conversation. She is still pretty sharp and was so glad I called. Maggie and Robert called hermearlier. Her two sons never called her. They are both two worthless souls who can't let go off the past. When you are in your fifty's you should let the past go and do the right thing. So you had your problems with your mother,get over it, she is 85 and life is too short. These god fearing men are a couple of hypocrites. Grow up Jeffrey and Douglas.

Talked to Michael and Maria for a bit. They are well. Michael got a B in Science and a C in social studies. He is smarter than that but lazy. I'm going to have to have a talk with him.

Had a steak sandwich for dinner with some steamed broccoli, and some burgundy. feeling better now. There is a grateful dead show on PBS tonight at 10 to 1:30. Will program the VCR as I will never be able to stay awake to watch it. Got to get up at 4:30 am. Didn't win lotto so I have to go to work tomorrow. Have an eye Dr. appt tomorrow afternoon and have to work Saturday and Sunday (half days). I don't mind working weekends when I am in town as there is nothing to do in Yakima anyway. Hope to take off next Friday and spend the weekend with the Barone's.

I guess I sound pretty negative, I don't mean too my life isn't horrible but I guess I expect too much. Got give the strength to change the things I can and to accept the things I can't and the wisdom to differentiate between the two! Well it's getting late and I have a few things to do.

peace!

Hump day

Well it was a busy morning at work. Got an early start. Tom was back after 4 days off an was his usual helpful self. He is a nice guy but likes to bullshit all the time. Got everything lined out by 11 and took a couple hours off. Need to get away as I was tired and couldn't take being around the group. They are all Happy to do nothing. Even my boss is bullshit. Oh well they are federal employees and just can't help themselves.

The film crew showed up at mom's house around 6:30. They took allot of pictures and were very nice to mom.Adel was so excited. Just like a teenager!. Gee, I hope it works out and they want to use the hose. They could use the $ and the excitement. Maggie called this afternoon for a few minutes. Dave called and we spoke for about a half hour. He is going through some rough times at work too. I called and spoke to Bruce B.for a bit and we decided I would come next weekend instead of this. It works better for all. I would rather work this weekend and make sure everything goes well and I have a Dr. appt Friday and I should go to glen's retirement dinner Friday night.

I have to finalize my flight plans tonight or tomorrow. Should make a few calls this weekend to NY too.

Had breakfast for dinner, poached eggs and turkey sausages with toast. It was easy and good.

Spoke to mom and rob before they went to bed. All is well with them. Mom was eating her nightly dose of ice cream and rob was ready for sleep. He really needs a long break. I hope he can hold out till I come in as he won't get more than a day or so from Maggie or Dave. It's not their fault, just the way it is. Jane is a no show but that is typical. Have to pay my bills tomorrow. Should have enough $ for the weekend. Payday Tuesday. Want to write more but not right now.

peace

Hollywood at 88-02

Well, quite an exciting day for Mom and Rob. Apparently Al Pacino and Robert Dinero are filming a movie in Richmond Hill NY this summer and are interested in using Mom's house in the movie. The director and others are coming by the house tomorrow to do a walk through to see if it will work in their film. I thought Rob was pulling my leg at first but when I talked to Adel I was convinced. A studio representative came by the house today to set up an appt. to walk through the house and take some photos tomorrow. The studio called Robert a few times today to make arrangements. It would be great if it worked out but even if it doesn't it is still quite exciting, especially for Mom and Rob. Well we'll see what happens and I will continue to update.

As for my day. It was just another day at work. Went in at 6am and took care of business. They wanted to do a bunch of computer security test on my data collection system which involved shutting it down for a few hours so I took off at 10:30. Went home to relax and do a few chores. Decided not to go back into the office and worked from home for about 1 1/2 hours over the course of the afternoon. Did some bookkeeping and other misc. paperwork then some home PC maintenance. Watched a little TV and did some laundry etc. I watched a little cspan regarding the proposed energy bill. It's hard to stomach watching our elected officials waste so much time on rhetoric and getting nothing accomplished. We really need to clean house in DC. Across the board, Dems and Republicans, doesn't matter what label they wear let's clean house. Can't be any worse than what is being done by the incumbents. The current regime is not interested in the welfare of the common American and never will be. We have to eliminate the professional politician! But it will never happen in my lifetime. The American people lack the motivation to actually do anything. We have become a lazy populace and until the impacts to the common man are sufficient to motivate them to action nothing will change. Wake up America they are picking our pockets and selling us out right before our eyes! Well I'm getting to heavy, on with my day.

Made a hamburger with steamed broccoli and cauliflower with homemade cheese sauce for dinner. Mmmmm goood!

Did a 3 way call with Maggie and Rob so Rob could tell her the Hollywood saga as Maggie thought I was pulling her leg. We all spoke for about 20 minutes and Maggie was finally convinced. Larry as usual was typically cynical (god bless him he is so steady). Emily was yelling in the background about the computer not working so we said our goodbyes and the east coasters were off to bed. I'm watching TV and blogging.

I need to call the Barone's about the weekend but will wait till tomorrow to see how work goes. I have an eye appt. Friday at 2 and Glen's retirement party is Friday night and I really should attend. If I go to Chewelah it will be Saturday morning and only if I can take Monday off. Wait and see. I really need to make the trip. I miss them and haven't seen them since last December. Gas is down 15 cents a gallon since Memorial Day so it won't cost as much but I am really broke and would have to charge everything as payday isn't till next Tuesday.

My doctor gave me some sleep aid samples yesterday. I tried Lunestar last night and it helped but I still woke up allot, but did fall back to sleep easier. I am going to try the Ambien tonight to see if it is any better. It would be nice to sleep more than 2 hours at a clip. I can't remember the last time I slept for 6 hours straight, let alone eight. I have to keep my bedroom window closed as the birds wake me up at 4:30 in the morning. It gets light too early. That's why I hate daylight savings time.

Still haven't heard from Dave. I guess I will have to call him eventually. Robert hasn't told him about Fire Island dates yet and I am leaving it up to him if he tells Dave or not. Last year was quite the disaster when they came and I don't want a re-run of that. Well I'm gonna take a break and have some desert. Maybe more later.

peace!

Just another manic Monday

Well since I couldn't sleep, I got up before 5am and went into work about 5:50. Good to get an early start as I had a 9:30 Dr. appt. Was quite busy but got everybody lined out before 9 and split. Between Dr. and drug store was done by 11, went to Safeway and picked up a few things then went home. Checked on the river and phoned in to work. Took care of a few things asked Teresa to take care of a couple of reservoir changes, lined bill out, called mom then checked e-mail. Rob got dates firmed up with Carol re: Fire Island, now I can make my flight reservations and firm things up. I am soooo looking forward to the beach.

Am planning on Chewelah this weekend, hope it works out but things are in transition on the river and may need to work. Called the bank to discuss my IRA. I want to transfer my IRA with B of A . to my TSP but might have waited too long. I have to call the TSP people and figure things out.

Maggie called and is planning on the front end at Fire Island. Wish she could stay for the whole time.

Still haven't written back to Irwin regarding his last e-mail. Gots to do that soon. Have allot of cards to send out this week. Old ones and new. Birthdays and graduations etc.

Trying to keep a positive perspective but it is getting hard. I really need a life change but I just can't seem to pin down what I want to do. I got my Ten Year Certificate 2 weeks ago and I am amazed. I know why I feel this way. I never spent 10 years in one occupation my whole life. Time for something new even if I am over 50!. It's all just too easy and predictable, no challenge any more. I am so not stimulated.

If I only had someone to love maybe I wouldn't feel so anxious. I can't seem to settle down. I wish I could find a gal I could be comfortable with . A friend and a lover. But you have to look to find and I have given up looking. I keep thinking love is going to fall at my feet like when I was young. How foolish. But I would rather be alone than in a loveless relationship. I've seen tooo many of those go down in flames!I don't hear from Barbara unless I call and I am afraid to call After all these years I am still in love with her in a way I can't explain. I guess I always will be. It just doesn't hurt like it used to. I'm going to call her this week just to say hello. I know she doesn't care whether I do or not but I am feeling nostalgic and want to hear her voice.

Well the 30 days are up so I guess I am going to keep the laptop! Already made one payment and have to make the next this week so what the hell.

Just spoke to maggie. We spoke for a little about Mom and my plans to try and come back to care for her. She is still waiting on the state to send the info.

I am finding that keeping up the blog makes me feel better. Just to read my thoughts on the screen is quite therapeutic. I haven't missed more than a day since I started. I don't think anyone has read it but that is not the reason I am doing it anyway. Well I'm getting a little wordy tonight so I guess that's it for now. Maybe more later.

peace.

A dreary Saturday

Got up at 5am and went into work as usual. Had to make a few releases from the reservoirs as rain is projected in the mountains and I don't have much room left in them. Picked up some groceries after work and came home, made some breakfeast, egg biscuit and 3 turkey sausages. Tried Mom and Rob, Mom was up all night so rob was letting her sleep. Tried them again around 4edt and they were showering so rob will call me later. Maggie called and we spoke for a little. She is going in next Saturday and she and rob will meet steve in NYC for a little get together while dave stays with Mom. Maggie will stay till Monday night to cover for adel while she is busy with visiting family.

I am monitoring the river from home and may have to go in later to make some adjustments. Going to try and find a good movie to watch and relax. I am very tired but can't seem to nap.

more later,

Peace

Busy morning at work getting ready for the big meeting. All went well and I got to go home on time. No big debate about declining forcast a projected lower summer river flows.
Spoke with mom a couple of times today.She was so much better as she finally got some sleep.
Adel had to wake hre at 1pm but they had a good day.
Didn't hear from anyone els excep rob about 630pm.
Very tired tonight! didn't get much sleep last night. hope to sack early tonight.
more later.
peace and god bless

A day to vent!

Had a busy day at work which was good cause it kept my mind off of my disappointing family. .
We all must live and be judged by our deeds. Words mean nothing if they are not followed by action. Their contributions may satiate their conscience but god will be their final judge! God forgive me for judging them but I have had enough!
Thank god for Adel. She may be getting paid for taking care of Mom but she shows more concern for her and Robert than D and J ever have. She is always there for Robert when he needs her!!!!! She has put up with Mom no matter how difficult Mom gets. When Mom is having a bad day Adel is there. She doesn't complain when Robert is late or he needs her to come early or stay late. I wish D and J would show half the concern or real interest in Mom's life that Adel does.
Spent the day at work preparing for tomorrows meeting. We had quite a discussion regarding our run-off forecast but we were all close in our thoughts of what it should be. The fisheries biologists will be disappointed as the projected summer flow will be lower adn we can expect allot less water in our reservoirs this September. Oh well we all pray for rain.
I will try to get to sllep early tonight,
peace

Very busy morning at work. Had a lousy night, didn't sleep. Neither did mom or Rob. Rob had a big case and had to leave by 8am. Adel showed up at 9am and mom was on couch waiting for her. Was a rough day as mom was exhausted and ornery all day. Talked to her quite a few times but could not really calm her. had a very busy afternoon between calls to mom and working from home. I'm glad to have Teresa at work to help me out. she is a joy to have, never complains. If only I were younger. She reminds me of Barbara.

Robert is making mom some dinner. She is up in bed now and calmed down now that rob is home. I am listening to an interview on WNYC about Monterrey Pops Festival. Thank god for the Internet. Never hear this on my local public radio. Wish I had a little weed would help me sleep. Weather has cooled off and should stay that way this week.

Got to get in touch with JC an Debbie. Heard she had another attack and is not doing so well. I really want to get away and spend a few days in Chewelah to catch up with everyone there. I need to unwind and such. Wouldn't mind a little golf too. Got to get some money together for a trip. Also need to send out birthday and graduation gifts! Trying to keep a PMA over all and want to get back on my diet.

Trying to avoid the political scene as I am so fed up with the hypocrisy. Nothing will ever change with American politics until we can get the corporate money out of it which they will never let happen.

I read a few good articles today in the AARP bulletin regarding some breakthroughs in Alzheimer's treatments. I am going to look into the possibility of getting Mom in some of the studies on new drug treatments. I will check out some of the web links to wee if there are any studies going on in NY that we could get mom in.

Maybe more later,

peace

Monday, Monday

Just another day. Quite busy at work, problems with the power plant at Tieton as usual. Made the day go fast though. Before I knew it it was time to go. Spoke with mom a few times. Rob and Mom called later and we spoke for about a half hour. Robert is talking to Carol to get Fire Island trip worked out. I am really looking forward to that! Maybe we can get more than a week. Still can't get in touch with Kevin. Will have to drop him a line as his phone seems to be disconnected. Still waiting for details from Maggie regarding home health care and FMLA forms from doctor. Robert is determined to stay in the house. I am willing to support that but he has to get deed issues taken care of to get financing together to get work done. I guess

I am going to keep the laptop. Not had any problems with it and I really enjoy having it! Probably could have gotten a little better deal but not with the five installments. That is the great part of it and the Gateway is working well.

Weather is cooling off so I don't need to run the AC, thank god! Still haven't heard from Dave. Oh well. More later maybe.

peace

Hot Sunday

97 today, another record high!!!!!!! Got called out to work at 4:30am busy morning. Had to get Bill to Bumping Lake by 6am then to the office to make a bunch of reservoir releases. I'm tired tonight and hope I don't get an alarm tonight. Bed will be early with the hopes of a good night's sleep. Mom had the visiting nurse today then Rob went out for awhile while Adel stayed with Mom. Thank God for Adel!!!!!!

Talked to the Barone's for awhile until I got a call from Lake Easton. It never ends!!!!!! Maybe more later.

peace

A Hot Saturday!

It was a hot Saturday, about 95 and supposed to be hotter tomorrow. Went to the office this morning for a few hours then work from home the rest of the day. Had to run Bill up to Bumping Lake then Clear Lake then Rimrock. Oh well he like the overtime. I am playing it close to the bone on the Lakes and it takes allot of watching. They are all almost full and I have to be care full not to let them over fill as I don't want the paperwork and bullshit that goes with it. Spoke with Mom and Rob a few times today. Mom was a little down at first but she seemed to improve as the day went on. Rob got her out on the porch for a couple of hours while he did some gardening. then she helped him cook dinner.

In between work I watched westerns all afternoon and am watching the Shootest (John Wayne) right now. I'm a sucker for a good John Wayne western. It's the Son's of Katie Elder next. I bought the DVD today. Only $10.00 for the two movies. I am building quite a collection of his movies.

Spoke with Maggie briefly today we will talk more tomorrow when she has time. Don't hear from Dave much anymore. Don't expect to hear from Jane anytime soon. I have to work the next few weekends but I am planning on the weekend of the 15th to go to Chewelah.

Robert seemed a little down today. He has been carrying the bag for the past few years now and it is taking it's toll. Hope he talks to Carol soon and we get the house for a week this summer. I hope I can work things out to take over for him this fall. Waiting to hear from Maggie about what I have to do to make it happen.

Well it's milkshake Saturday so I'm done for now. More later.

peace!

Friday came and Friday went. It was another hot one here! 93 in the shade and hotter tomorrow. Work went well for it being FoF ( fuck off Friday). Snow in the mountains is melting off fast cause it is so hot so I have to keep a close watch on my reservoirs. Have to work tomorrow. Mom and Rob are doing well. Spoke with Maggie briefly. I am tired and plan on hitting the sack early as there is nothing going on. Burgers for dinner, a little TV and then bed. How exciting!!!!! Oh well such is my life in Yakima!

peace

It was another banner day at the Yakima Field Office. It's amazing how little can be done by so many! Oh well. Hot here in Yakima, about 90 today and hotter tomorrow. Had to turn on the AC. Mom was OK today but a little anxious when Robert was late getting home. Adel and mom called a few times until he arrived. It is almost 10pm EDT now and I don't expect to hear from them tonight. Maggie e-mailed the pictures she took of their meeting with Bea Carpenter. The picture is of that day.

I haven't been sleeping well lately but have been dreaming quite a bit which is unusual for me. I won't elaborate but to say they all take place in NY. I cannot shake the feeling that I am destined to return but when is still a mystery.

I can't seem to shake this restless feeling and desire for a major change in my life. I am bored and disgusted at work. Can't seem to find anything to keep my interest. I have been feeling drained and hollow as if there is something missing I just can't seem to nail it down. I need to make some dramatic changes. I have been here too long. It is making me old.

I need to get Robert to nail down one way or another if we are going to go to Fire Island and when. My boss keeps pressing me to get my time scheduled. I will press him tomorrow about it. If Carol is not going to offer the house we need to make some other plans asap. It is already June and flight schedules will be harder to make the later I wait.

Ruth is retiring tomorrow. Her daughter has leukemia and is dying. Ruth is going to take care of her daughter's three children. They are quite young, twins who are six and another child which is eight I think. It is a very sad time for her but she is a remarkable woman! I pray for her strength every day! Ted is still in the hospital with no diagnosis yet.

Well maybe I'll add more later but for now I will wish you peace!

It was an early day for me at work and quite busy. I was called to the aid of one of my co-workers. At first we thought it was a sugar problem but wound up rushing him to the hospital as we thought it might be heart related. Ted is resting comfortably and is spending the night at memorial hospital for tests and observation. He has been under allot of stress lately with a daughter in the hospital, a new house and a family fighting over his dead mothers estate. I pray all is well and he is released soon. Makes the rest of the day seem trivial after such a morning. I was quite worried for a time as I like Ted and think of him as a friend not just a c0-worker.

Mom seemed fine with me today although Robert was concerned as he felt she was quite erratic with him when they spoke. I myself had a couple of good conversations with her. We discussed the weekend with Bea and the family. She had a visit from the physical therapist today which she seems to enjoy much. I spoke with them around 830pm EDT. Robert was getting dinner ready and mom was giving him a hard time. He was trying to get her to go upstairs for dinner and desert and I convinced her to comply. I expect to hear form them before they go to bed. Maggie is suppose to call as I am anxious to talk to her about coming in to take care of mom under NY states family care plan or something like that. It is where the family can select the care provider and the the state will pay them rather than a facility or such. It would mean putting my career on hold but it would also get me back east too.

Just spoke with mom and rob, they were settling in for the night as they are both tired from the busy weekend.

I am just watching a movie and typing and getting ready to make my nightly milkshake.

A warm Tuesday

Today is Maria and Katie's birthday, Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hope you both had a great day!

I didn't do much today except work. I haven't been feeling too well but I haven't been taking good care of myself lately either. Got to start eating better and exercising.

Mom and Rob got home thanks to Dave. They got home around 3PM EDT spoke to them early but not tonight. I guess they are tired and went to bed early. Robert has work tomorrow and the trip took allot out of mom, although she was in great spirits!.

Looks like summer is getting ready to settle in here. Warm sunny days are in the forecast for the week. I hope I can keep a PMA (positive mental attitude) at work this week and don't let them bring me down. Have to find other things to keep me occupied beside work and the news.

I got a reply from Irwin, an old friend from Hunter Mountain days. He and his wife Deb are doing well and we have allot of catching up to do. There are times I wished I had never left Westkill. I met a lot of good people there. But time moves forward not back! I can only hope to re-forge old bonds and not have regrets for choices made in the past. I must remember to keep looking forward for it is too easy to lose myself in the past! Looking to the future is the only way to keep hope alive. Hope for change, for better things, and for peace! God grant me the wisdom to always look forward, not to forget the past but to build on the knowledge I gained from it! I only wish I was wiser when I was younger, but as they say it is never to late! Whatever time is left for me whether it be long or short from this moment on I promise myself to make the most of it!

None of the family has read my blog yet and I really don't mind if they do or don't. I am writing more for me as it seems to be therapeutic. I should have started a journal a long time ago. Having the laptop and nothing else to do makes it easier too. I am getting addicted to milkshakes though. I am getting into the habit of making one after dinner and typing my blog.

Bruce gave me Kevin Collins address. I have been trying to call him but his phone number is not working. I know he is OK as Maria got a mother's day card from him. Kevin is a good soul and we have allot in common. We just don't keep in touch even though he is living just on the other side of the mountains in Seattle. We have had our ups and downs but that is expected as we have know each other for more than 30 years now.

Well I guess I'll finish for today. There is aways tomorrow for more.

peace.

Memorial Day

Slept late and lounged around all day. Didn't do a damn thing! Spoke with mom rob and maggie around 7pdt tired and bad allergies. Bed down early tonight. Jane Bruce and Clare at Maggie's for barbeque no JADE. Having my nightly milkshake and then bed.

more tomorrow,

peace!

Sunday, May 27

Slept in til 8:30 today first time in I can't remember! Bruce woke me up at 7am but I went back to bed as I was staying home anyhow. Bruce wound up working today so it was good I stayed home. I will plan a trip to chewelah for the 8th of June unless something comes up.

Lounged around till about 10:30 then went out for a newspaper and smokes. Came home and had a late breakfast. Watched the indy 500 until the rain delay. talked to Tom and got a few things straightened out as he was having a difficult day at work. The shit always hits the fan when I take off or on a holiday this just happened to be both.

Bruce B.called to check in. He and Maria are golfing in the Kay Walker tournament tomorrow. His mom is doing well and Maria's sisters are in Hawaii.

Took a hot bath and read the paper. Watched a few war movies as it is memorial day weekend. Baked a loaf of whole wheat Italian bread and drank a few glasses of wine. Nice to be off and do nothing. Had some sausages (Italian) and asparagus for dinner, watched the end of pt109 then put on the Man who shot Liberty Valance. Rob called from hotel. They had a great time visiting Bea Carpenter, and were joking around when they called. Cheryl put on a great spread for them! Mom was in great spirits and was making fun of everyone!!!!!. Going to make a milkshake now so more later.

A day off

Well I am off today and was heading for Chewelah but I had a very bad night with my back.

Got up early as Maggie called me because there was a leak at mom's. Told her what to do and went to take a hot bath to lossen up and try to get going. Went back to bed after bath as I was just played. Decided to stay home and just relax, sleep do nothing etc. Called Barone's and let them know I was staying home. Just as well as they want to play in golf tournament on Monday and Bruce had allot going this weekend. Slept and lounged until 11 then ran to Safeway to get a few things an a Starbucks coffee. I've spent the rest of the day lounging around watching nothing on TV and having a few glasses of wine. Starting to feel no pain now at 530pm and am going to make some dinner and watch The Stand as there is really nothing on and I like to watch that movie when I have a buzz on!

Spoke to Mom Rob and Maggie at the hotel and they are doing real well! It's good for mom to get out and Robert can get a little relief and a hot tub and swim at the hotel. they are supposed to see Bea Carpenter tomorrow and I hope that goes well. I've been following the saga of the whales in CA. I hope they survive! I pray they do !!!!

Life is difficult as a human I can't imagine how difficult it must be for the animals which we persecute each and every day. What a horror it must be for all creatures that we impact excluding the pets we choose to cherish (how lucky they are). If only wisdom progressed as quickly as technology!

Made some deep fired asparagus for dinner tonight and they were awsome!

Really wish my back would stop hurting!!!!! Maggie and Mom called from the stop and shop parking lot while they were waitng for Robert. Mom is having a good time! She loves to get out it really stimulates her. She does so much better when she is out and about. Trying to use the new laptop as much as possible during the 30 day return time. Ireally enjoy having the convience of a laptop. I spend so much time sitting at a desk top that is it nice being able to use a computer in a comfortable environment. Watched some Clash vieos on utube the other night. There was a great interview with Tom Synder from 1981 and some great live videos.

more later.

Friday, May 25th angry thoughts

Well it's finally Friday and I finally have a weekend off. Three whole days. I am going to head to Chewelah Saturday morning to visit the Barone's. Maybe even get a round of golf in. Margaret and Robert are taking Mom to Poughkeepsie Saturday - Tuesday. David is supposed to bring them home. Hope that works out. Chris screwed me at work again today. It was my fault for having him handle communications with the region. He always seems to find a way to take the lions share of the credit for my efforts. I'm such a fool. He really pisses me off!!!!!! I am going to have it out with him on Tuesday! I have had enough of bearing the brunt of the responsibility and geting no respect. He has one hell of an ego and I am going to crush it!!!!!!!

Sorry, enough of that. Life is too short to let myself get upset over so trivial a man. Didn't hear from Richmond Hill tonight, hope all is well. Spoke with them a couple of times today though. They were having a good day getting ready to go away.

More later.

peace

More thoughts: Thursday, May 24th

Another red letter day at the office!!!!! Actually it was a pleasant day, worked at the office until about noon. Allergies were really bad again today for everyone! Spoke with mom and adel about 230 EDT , they were having a good day. Were on the pourch when we spoke. The physical therapist came later. Mom really enjoys his visits. Got an e-mail reply from my friend Irwin whom I worked with when I lived in Westkill. I'm glad he got back to me. I'm going keep in touch now after 20 years. Irwin and Debbie are great people. Glad to hear they are doing well. Tom (my assistant) had a family emergency at home today and had to leave work suddenly. I may have to change my plans for the weekend and work, but that doesn't matter. I'm not sure I really want to travel this weekend any way.

Robert is enjoying the keyboard and mom loves to have music played for her! Maggie came down to Richmond Hill tonight to help Robert get mom ready to go to Poughkeepsie this weekend. There was a cancellation at the residence inn so they are going to get the 2 bedroom ther for the weekend rather than the Mariott. Great!

Mom and Rob sang happy birthday on the keyboard to MAGGIE while I listened. We spoke for about a half hour tonight while they sang and laughed. It is great to hear mom happy!!!! She was better today, more alert and attentive.

I hope Robert gets the plans together for the beach soon so I can make my plans to visit. Mom keeps asking when I am coming in to see her.

I didn't watch the news tonight again and Iam glad. No Jury duty tomorrow, I didn't think they would call us being a holiday weekend. Talking to Maria right now they are really looking forward to my visit. Its been almost 6 months since I've seen them. That's all for now!

peace.

More of me. Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Well it was another day wasn't it! Not much different here. Took a few hours off from work to avoid an "all hands meeting" to discuss another re-organization. New boss new plan!!!!!

Robert was home with mom today and I spoke with them a few times. Mom was ok but not on her best game, but neither was I. Forgot to mail maggie's BD card and adam and emily's graduation card. I have to get them in the mail befor the weekend!!!!!! Allergies have been bad the last couple of days and haven't been getting much sleep.

Haven't heard from dave in awhile. Maybe I'll try him tomorrow night. The news wasn't to bad today although I didn't pay much attention to it. Avoided listening about anything coming out of DC as it is always the same old rhetoric. It's amazing how we keep voting in people who have no clue what it is to be us!!!! Well I will be brief tonight as I am tired and really don't have much to say. More tomorrow.

peace!

Tuesday, My life cont.

Before anything else:
I want to say how proud I am of you both Emily and Adam!!!!!!!!! Congratulations to both of you!!!!!!! HAPPY GRADUATION!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE THE FUTURE AND THE FUTURE IS YOU!!!!!!! MAY YOUR LIVES BE FILLED WITH JOY AND HAPPINESS AND YOUR DREAMS BE FULL FILLED!!!!!!!! MAY THE WORLD FIND PEACE AND YOU BOTH FIND LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!! Remember everything you do matters!!!!! IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU DO JUST BE HAPPY! That's all God wants of us is to be happy and treat each other as we wish to be treated!!! It's not how much you have but what you do with it that matters!!!!! God bless you both!!!!!
Went to work early (before 6am) got my daily status report done and my assistant lined out for the day and took the rest of the day off. I really needed a day away from the office. Got the oil changed in my jeep at walmart and did some grocery shopping. was home by 9am. Insomnia has it's benefits! Tried to nap but it's not in me. so piddled on the computer for awhile and watched a good western on AMC. Henry Fonda, Richard Widwmark, in Warlock! paid some bills talked to Mom and Adel etc.
The keyboard I ordered for Rob arrived at 545pm. Glad they got it with no hassles. Mom was a little crabby with me tonight before Robert came home but her mood improved later. I don't mind when she gets crabby with me better me than Rob as he has to take it when no one else is around which is most of the time (except for adel who has the patience of Job). God bless adel and robert!!!!!!! So far I don't have to report for jury duty on Wednesday. Have to call in after 9AM to find out for sure, they do things a bit different out here. I hope I don't have to report as I have allot to catch up on at work. Trying to keep a positive perspective on work! No one else takes it so seriously.We have an all office meeting tomorrow at 9AM they are going to discuss possible re-organization. I hope they try to bump me but I doubt it as there is no one who really wants my job. Too much responsibility and not enough pay.
Not much on the tube tonight, watching re-runs of Reba right now, stupid show but for some reason I find it funny. Well better than Amer. Idol or some other reality crap show.
Hope Robert finds out about Fire Island soon as I need to get my summer leave reserved. Also need to get deed changed over ASAP!. I need to get my FMLA papers filed ASAP too. Maggie has to get Dr. to get paperwork done.
I really enjoy having a laptop. Allot more comfortable typing in bed or on the couch. I do so much computer work at a desk (at work) that the last thing I want to do is sit at a desk at home and type.
Made pizza for dinner tonight! God it was good!!!! I starved myself all day so I could eat half a pizza tonight. I make a really good pizza if I do say so myself.
Haven't heard from Dave or Jane in awhile. Hope Jane is still not mad about what happened with the Dr. Appt. when I was in and hope she realized I was right in not trying to drag mom out that night. Time will tell.
Nothing really positive to talk about on the political scene. Looks like they will pass the immigration bill although I think it is the wrong legislation they will do what they will do no matter what the voters want. I am not against immigration but I don't think they should make special rules. We should all have to follow the same rules no matter what. Illegal is illegal no one should get amnesty just for the sake of big business. But we do live in a capitalistic world and that is not likely to change in my lifetime. I am not looking forward to all the political debate that will fill the news from now until the 2008 election, along with all the depressing news of the middle east. So, I will avoid the news as much as possible.
I really dig having DSL. I love being able to listen to NY radio along with the many other entertainment venues that are now available to me. I seem to be spending allot more time on the Internet now though. Don't know if that is good or bad right but it is interesting.
Well that's it for now. More tomorrow.
peace to you all!

Don't really know what to write. Thought I would try out starting a blog.
Spoke to Maggie about 6:30PDT, couldn't get Rob and Mom. Had jury duty today. Worked till 11:30 then home to dress and report at 1PM. Did not get selected to serve but the process was interesting. Burglary case. Was therE till 5pM. Still on call till june 1st. Trying not to watch or listen to too musch news lately as it is just too depressing. It's hard for me to believe that we have progressed so little since the 70's. It is so easy to forget the rebellious feelings of our youth and aquious to the machine as we get older.
I still find it hard to adapt to the federal employee attitude. I guess I expect too much from them. I will never understand how so many people can find satisfaction doing so little in a day. I guess I need to focus more on life outside the workplace. I am 10 years in federal sevice and still can't believe it!.
Trying to decide whether to keep new laptop or return it. Probably could have gotten a better deal. Still think I should have bought a dell but I have till june 8th to decide if I want to return the Gateway. It's a nice computer but the software that came free is not really Vista ready and that was part of the lure along with the five installment payment schedule. I upped the memory in my old dell 4500 destop to 512mb and it is really working well even though it is five years old. I am planning on a trip to the Barones' this weekend and will probably leave Saturday morning.
Getting tired. it was a long day. I will try to rest and pray I wake up. I love you mom!!!!!!
peace and love till tomorrow.
Q.